Some is the same, some is really different

Happy Monday, peeps.  I’m watching insane winds out the window, sipping coffee, and trying to wake up and wrap my head around this hurricane.  In the meantime, I wanted to start posting some of the posts from the past few weeks. I’ve started to write about the second pregnancy and saving things to drafts until I was ready to post it – now’s as good a time as any.

Just to answer a few of your questions that have been left in the comments:

  • This pregnancy was planned.  If you know me and my control freak nature, everything in my life is planned.  Including this tiny little chicken nugget.
  • I found out I was pregnant a day before 4 weeks.  Luckily for us, we had only decided to start “trying” that month and were successful the first go-around.  This makes me think we need to be extra cautious when we’re not trying.
  • Right now I’m feeling ok – but I wouldn’t have said that around week 7-10.  But more on that later this week.  Here’s the very beginning.

 

From August 13 – 6 weeks

Today is 6 weeks.  I know I won’t post this for another 6-8 weeks but I wanted to write down what I was feeling in the moment.  So here goes.

This pregnancy – it’s the same and so different in so many ways, none of which can be found in a baby book.  I think the majority of it has to do with the fact that it’s our second baby, though I suspect a lot also has to do with the fact that we’re older, more chilled, and more experienced.

Let’s start with what’s the same:

  • The number of pregnancy tests that I took. O M G I am out of control (and I’m hoping some of you will comment and tell me that I am not the only crazy one out there).  I swore to myself that this time I would relax and let nature take its course.  I would wait to take a test until it was past 4 weeks or about 2 days before I was expecting AF.  I guess some things never change – I took about 2-3 tests when I would have been…oo….3 weeks pregnant?  I know that it’s impossible to see anything but I still did it.  The third or fourth test was at 3 weeks and 6 days and it was positive!  Well, it was a tiny barely visible red line.  So, of course, I proceeded to take more tests in the weeks that followed, letting a day pass between each.  I think at the end I took about 8-10.  For those of you who are shaking your head at me right now…I know.  I’m right there with you.  But apparently it’s not something within my control.  Let’s just say my hormones made me do it (they didn’t).
  • So far (ok, this is like 2 weeks since I’ve known so it’s really not even fair to count, but whatever) – no pregnancy symptoms, very similar to how things were with Peanut.  I noticed that I’m a little more tired and I get winded quickly plus there is a little nausea after each meal I have, but overall – I’m the same as I was before I was pregnant.  I guess that’s a good thing.  Let’s hope it lasts.
  • We’re cautiously happy.  I know that there are still a ton of chances for things not to go the way we want them to from here on, so we’re being cautious.  However, we’re enjoying knowing that there is a second little peanut and that’s a little exciting.
  • The second pink line left me with the same excited feeling as it did when we found out we were pregnant the first time.  A huge mix of excitement and fear.  I was so excited that we were going to have another baby and then, almost in the same heartbeat, I realized that it meant we were going to have another baby.  Although this time I wasn’t nervous about turning our little family from 2 adults to a family with kids, I was nervous about a ton of other things – what will Addison think, how will this affect us financially, what will it be like to be pregnant again, omg I have to go through labor again, what are we going to do with a toddler on no sleep?  I guess some things just never change.

But there are a lot of things that do change…

  • I’m a lot calmer.  I don’t know what it is for sure, but I’m guessing it’s a mix of been-there-done-that and the fact that we already have a kid.  Although I was still incredibly excited to find out that we were expecting, I was calm.  Collected.  Unlike myself.  I did continue to take about 6 more tests after the initial positive to make sure the line was getting darker, but my mind was always at ease.  I’m not antsy, willing the line to appear.  I’m just watching it, smiling as it does.  It’s a feeling that’s hard to explain.  I know that if things don’t work out I will be sad and disappointed, but a part of me is ok with it.  I guess what isn’t meant to be won’t be.  You can bet your fanny that is not how I felt when we found out we were pregnant with Peanut.  Between the 10s of tests that I took, I panicked about every belly ache, every move, every passing day.  I counted the hours before each appointment, dying to hear that heartbeat.  I am still waiting for the appointments in anticipation, eager to hear the heartbeat but it’s out of excitement rather than fear.  The thing that I think makes the most difference to me this time around is that our attention is diverted to a little certain toddler who consumes us.  I think the fact that we’ve done this once, successfully, and the fact that we already have a baby to give all of our love to takes the edge off.  The excitement isn’t subdued, but my fears are.
  • I swear that my stomach grew overnight the night we found out we were expecting.  I have no idea if it’s in my head or what, but I swear I’m constantly feeling bloated and my clothes feel too tight.  If this is the road we’re headed, I’m a little concerned about what I will look like at 9 month.
  • I think I also feel like “we got this.”  You know, because we’ve done this before.  I remember the appointments and all the poking and prodding.  I remember that a little spotting isn’t the end of the world and that the first ultrasound is a bit invasive.  I remember that whatever symptoms I did have the first time dropped off at 9 weeks but that was ok.  And labor can be scary…but we all survived.
  • I’m also less uptight about the things I had strict self-guidelines on before.  I had a beer before we found out that we were pregnant but after the assumed “it” date (I didn’t drink at all once we even considered trying with P).  I am ok with an epi if I’m in the pain I was in with Peanut.  I think if baby #2 isn’t gaining weight, I’ll add formula to the breast milk bottles.  I know the big no-no’s during pregnancy, but I’m not googling every single ingredient and freaking out over a piece of a cold cut near my food.
  • Oh and I am way less emotional.  At least for now.  Then again, I haven’t seen the little one on the screen nor heard her or his heartbeat.  That’s bound to make a huge difference in my world.

Comments

  1. Pregnancy #2 was much different for me in that there was virtually no morning sickness (and what little there was came and went by 7 wks), and although I was much calmer about pregnancy related stuff the second time I was insanely hormonal and emotional. I cried At The Drop Of A Hat. It was ridiculous. For me this was harder than the physical stuff. I was sure I was having a boy because of these differences but we were blessed with a second girl.

    You will do great with a baby and a toddler! My two are a mere 14 months apart and I survived/am surviving. You planned much better than me :). And congratulations!

  2. Oh, I get the change to thinking how you’re going to handle 2. Not even pg and thinking about that! And so glad it’s been going well!

  3. These are all the exact things I think about having a second. (We’re not yet!) my sister says you do great just bc you have to. There’s no time to second guess as much. Someone once told me, “The first child is made of glass; the second one is made of rubber.” lol

  4. This is so exciting! I am serious baby fever right now but I am freaked about how to pay for two kids in daycare!
    Stay safe during the storm – we are in CT too (Hartford County) but it sounds like the shoreline is going to get hit much worse. Good luck!

  5. So excited for you friend!! And it’s funny b/c I have gotten increasingly nervous as the pregnancy has gone on as far as what it will mean to add to the family … not sure if that’s normal but I get more nervous every day!

  6. I love pregnancy posts! Can’t wait to eat more an see more pictures as you progress. Yay!!

  7. Congrats to you guys!!!!!

  8. I am so excited for you and your family! I’m with you on being more relaxed while pregnant the second time around. I think I am much more confident which is nice, but I also realize my world will be rocked in a few short months.

  9. The second baby grows so much faster! It all evens out though:) and you are always so tiny! Congrats again!

  10. Congratulations!!!!! I am so happy for you. Peanut will be an amazing big sister :)

  11. Congratulations!!!!! I was WAY more relaxed with the 2nd pregnancy and by my 3rd…nothing phased me.

  12. Awww – congrats! that is really sweet to read! I missed the first announcement post b/c I had gotten behind on my blog reading! :)
    I was more calm with my 2nd pregnancy… but we had a lot of fertility issues so, the waiting and testing – yeah that was me! :)

  13. I totally bought SO many pregnancy tests!! With my first, because I was so skeptical after a year and a half of negative tests I did 9 home tests and went to a walk-in clinic because I couldn’t get a dr’s appt for a couple of weeks… my husband nearly passed out when I told him how much they cost each! LOL…

    SO looking forward to following along on this journey!

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